Why am I my own worst enemy?

Why am I my own worst enemy?” His thoughts spiraled deeper. “Why can’t my creation, my intentions, and my wants all line the fuck up for once? What is preventing me from doing that?” Just then a sarcastic answer popped into his head—“Fear.” He didn’t know why the thought just appeared, but he decided to roll with the concept for a while. “Is it that because I was afraid the situation would play out this way that it became an actuality?” he wondered. “If that’s the case, then why—why is it always the negative situations that seem to have more power to manifest themselves and not the more positive ones?”